I have been struggling the past few months, and it is not depression so much as it is stagnant, and passive. I am happy, and I have so much joy, but my life is also full of unnecessary things. I am tired of the screens in my life. I know them too well, and they know me better. They grip me in when there are any spare moments in my day, they tell me what to think and they cause me unnecessary stress. My computer at work, my laptop, my phone, my iPad, my television - I want less screens and I want more inspiration. Not to say I do not find inspiration there because I do, but probably like most of you, I often experience numbness. I want to peruse less and do more.
I am taking a series of steps to un-clutter my life. Most are personal, but one I hope - will be the opposite of personal. I hope it becomes a place where I and those around me are vulnerable and open to inspiration and change and discovering more of the human parts of this existence we all share. That is a fancy way of saying, that I am starting a book club.
This book club is not exclusive. I realized a few days ago that I am the most inspired though when I am discussing literature with other people who love literature. Therefore, I am starting a book club for those who love literature too, a lot. I will host it once a month in my tiny apartment, and I hope it will become a place for people like me who feel void after leaving school (or are still in school but just really love books.)
For those who do not live near Orem, Utah, first of all, congratulations for living in a place that is more exciting than this, and second, I will share the recap of the club and host it online too. I don't care how many people want to participate, really I don't. There could be 150 of you or 2 of you and it would all be worth it to me because it would allow this particular screen of mine to do something productive and beautiful.
If you are interested, please let me know - comment, email me, call me, text me, show up on my front door, write me a letter - anything. I hope to start in March and choose the book soon.
"We can only be human together."
- Desmond Tutu