being married isn't so hard,
except that you have to be willing to make sacrifices you weren't willing to make before.
sacrifices that involve not being alone for long periods of time.
- - but you'd rather be with him than alone anyway,
you just don't realize it when you have been with him for a long time.
when you finally get to be alone you enjoy the first hour or so,
and then you realize that those sacrifices are nothing at all
because you'd much rather be with him
than with yourself.
you like yourself. maybe even love yourself, but not as much as he loves you.
besides, it is much better to be alone and know you are loved
than alone - really alone.
because when you are alone without him and he is somewhere else
you still know you're not really alone,
because you are loved by him.
you will find yourself wishing all that time apart would end already.
you are your best selves together, whether you realize it or not.
(and your worst selves too, just to keep things interesting.)