I have this thing I do with Kevin and it is morbid and I should stop, but sometimes I can't help but ask. I want to know how his life would be lived if I were no longer in it. If I were no longer here on this earth. (am I the only wife who does this?)
Would you get remarried? Of course you would. What would she be like? How soon? Would you be an awkward dater? Would you tell her about me? Make sure she is so nice.
Where would you live? Would you still go to school? Would your specialty change?
Would you sell all of my things? Would you give them away? Would you leave it up to someone else to pack up? Make sure my sisters help you.
How long would you miss me? How soon until you would feel better again?
The other night I asked him, "Would you still have kids?"
He thought about it for a minute. I could tell he wasn't sure how to respond, and he rubbed his eyes with his fingers before he finally spoke.
"Yes. But they wouldn't be with you."