11.17.2010

Fears

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I used to be afraid of a lot of things. Not really unrealistic fears like alligators, which I would be afraid of if I lived in say, Florida. And not really the fear of growing old alone, because first of all I didn't and second of all I don't mind being alone as long as I am not lonely.

I had fears instead about being kidnapped, and gas prices, and politics and communism. I had fears that I would be forced to do things I didn't want to do, and that I wouldn't live long enough to fulfill my dreams. I had fears of evil finding its way into my life, and fears of losing myself.

But now I feel like Macaulay Culkin on Home Alone when he runs out to the streets yelling, "I'm not afraid anymore!" Because that is me now.

I don't know when I stopped being so afraid, but I know who it is who released me from my fears. Thank you Kevin, for freeing me from fear and for helping me believe that courage stems from being afraid, not from being brave.

Courage has to start somewhere.

11 comments:

Laura said...

aren't husbands so wonderful that way? they change our lives in countless ways.

Kay said...

congrats on the new found courage, the people who touch our lives so- are cherishable forever

blessings to you both :)

Michaela said...

I used to be afraid that I wouldn't live long enough to get married or have kids. I want to see how my life is going to turn out! But now I know it's out of my hands. God has a plan and I gotta go with the flow (: So glad your husband has encouraged you to be courageous!

grace said...

what a beautiful thought!

jaimie said...

i love this post. you have beautiful thoughts.

wallflower said...

Great post.

I have a problem with fears as well..

Tunes & Spoons said...

its that a most wonderful and freeing place to be? be very very proud of yourself.

-Sam I Am- said...

I think fear is a good thing at times because it pushes us to overcome them and that in turn makes us stronger! So glad you have overcame your fears :)

LOVE your blog by the way!! New follower for sure.

Ana* said...

How sweet!! Sometimes I fear I will never meet a genuine guy, or that I will never have children of my own. The idea of cruising through life lonely scares me, I'm happy you found someone who makes you feel secure and you were strong enough to over come your fears.

Hugs :)

e.day said...

i love this post. i've been struggling with a lot of fear of things lately. and it's been holding me back in a lot of areas. i really need to find the courage you did and be more brave. i'm glad you found a way to do that!

Katrina said...

it's true. love you